Wow, what a week this has been for me mentally. I have done a lot of soul searching and reflection the last couple of weeks.
My next realization: Venting, fuming, passionate aggravation. Whatever you want to call it. I get annoyed with something, whatever it is, and start going off on a tangent about it. Whether it is a utility company screwing up my bill AGAIN, someone not doing their job, some rude comment someone made, freaking out over something I have to accomplish on my own. I work myself up into such a frenzy instead of just praying about it. How is anyone supposed to see peace in me if I live my life on this high level of stress all the time? My new motto is "Vent Less, Pray More!". Why don't I just pray before calling AT&T for the trillionth time this month...God could already be solving the problem before I pick up the phone! Instead I am already on edge before I even make the call! I know some of you are probably thinking...why pray over something like a utility bill. Alas, you all do NOT know my past problems with CERTAIN utility companies! One call to them can ruin my WHOLE day! But why do I allow them that kind of control over my life!? Why don't I ask God to keep me calm before dealing with them? I treat Him as though I can only go to Him for the very BIG problems. My life would be so much more peaceful and stress free if I would go to him for the little things too! So, here is to "Vent Less, Pray More"!
Third Realization: A Change in My Focus & Attitude. I'm amazed at how much my attitude and focus has changed with my new resolutions. Even in these few short weeks I can see a difference! Verses are popping into my head at the most random times! I will mentally be stressing about something and then suddenly am mentally reciting a verse or song that I heard earlier that week that pertains directly to what I was stressing about! I don't even realize I am doing it at first! Times where my first thought would be to vent or stress, I am instead praying about it first without even thinking of venting! God is definitely helping me to turn this self reflection time into prayer time!
I pray you have a peace filled weekend!