"Seek ye first the kingdom of God, and His righteousness: and all these things shall be added unto you." Matthew 6:33
Why is it so hard for me to put this into practice? It isn't that I intentionally ignore it, but I allow myself to get caught up with everything going on in my life. I get stressed out and overwhelmed by all the decisions I have to make that I forget to continually pray about it and ask for God's help.
You think that would be the first thing I would always do since when I do make the effort He always guides me, and gives me a peace towards the right decision! It is amazing how I can feel so lost as to what to do one moment, and so at peace the next. God has an interesting way of working things out, and getting you to trust Him!
I am going to have to say goodbye for a little while...
For example, my husband informed me he wanted to join the Army Reserves back in September. I was caught off guard and annoyed that he was bringing it up again. (He has wanted to join since before we met.) I was really frustrated and tired of people asking me how I felt when he had barely given me any serious info on it. I was angry that he could just leave me behind to do this. I was angry that he was telling other people he was serious about this when we had barely talked about it. We had a long talk about how serious he was about joining, and that I needed him to be upfront with me and not keep information from me if he seriously wanted me to consider it. After that I prayed long and hard about it. I prayed that if it was God's will that He give me a peace and help me through this, and that if it wasn't his will that Justin quickly forget about this and move on. A couple of days later Justin called me at work to give me some more info, and I just knew. I knew he would be joining. I knew he needed to do this, and I knew he needed my support...and oddly enough...
I was totally at peace about it.
So much so that it was nothing short of a miracle! My attitude toward the whole thing had done a 180 in a matter of days! I can't even explain the peace I felt...it wasn't natural!
I've been called to stand by my man and support him in his calling.
Another example. We didn't think we would be able to buy a house yet due to the fact my husband had moved to sales in his company and was now making commission (you have to have 2 years history for them to use commission). So now he was going to be leaving me for 6 months to go to basic training and we rent in a not-so-great neighborhood. (We have been vandalized, broken into by a someone on meth, and Justin had to shoot the intruder!) Live there by myself for 6 months?
I don't think so!
Lenders told us they wouldn't be able to approve us enough for a decent neighborhood. Long story short, we found a wonderful lender who everyone was telling me not to trust, and that we wouldn't get the loan, but the whole time I had an odd peace and instinct telling me to trust him. We found a house in a good neighborhood! The seller agreed to pretty much everything we asked! And now my sister, Jenn, from Contemporary Harbor, is moving down here and will be staying with us till they sell their house! So I won't be alone while Justin is gone! It's amazing how things work out!
This is what Jenn & I will be doing at the new house come spring! Can't wait for my sis to get here so we can hang out! It will be like old times! (Probably both the good and bad!) Love ya Jenn!
I'm so glad things don't always work out the way I plan or 'think' I want them to! Otherwise I would miss all these wonderful blessings God gives! I may not be rich, with all the nicest clothes, driving fabulous cars, but I have a husband who is wonderful to me, a roof over my head, food on my table, a family who loves me, and a God who somehow works out every little detail for me!
Trust me I am blessed!
I hope you have a blessed week!